Haiya...

I NEED TO SHUT DOWN MY BRAIN.

I NEED PEOPLE TO SHUT UP and stop asking me to agree with them.

I NEED TO STOP TALKING TO MYSELF.

Okay, saya sudah express my anger yang bukan-bukan. Sekian terima kasih. Have a nice year end. Hee... Wekk!!! ;)

Natasha A.Juan

I spy with my little eye

Christmas without You

There was a hole in my heart the day you left, but I have filled the hole with the love you once gave to me.












It's impossible to think of Christmas, without reminding of you... I love you..

Your beloved granddaughter,
Natasha A.Juan @Shasha

Family Matters (In Images)

Meet "Mystique" my Aunt Doris's cat. Well, that's not its real name, I have no clue how to pronounce her real name... But I like the sound of "Misty".
























Here she is again. Looking cute effortlessly. She has the most hypnotic eyes. Agree?



















My adorable soul mate and faithful sleeping partner for almost 10 years with my gorgeous mother.



















Hehe... I may be small but I LOVE food. I have a hearty appetite and I am indeed one messy eater.



















A scene I captured from Buntal Seafood, located 35 kilometers away from Kuching City.



















My loving parents. Haha. Dad, what are you doing?I sure do love you both!



















He is a man who appreciates his drink, a lover, a never ending joker, my soulmate and best of all he is MY FATHER.



















Another panoramic view of Kampung Buntal.




















"Happy Holidays, all!!!!"

Lot's of love,
Natasha A.Juan

Who's up for Sitar Hero?

I just found this on Youtube. Very cool indeed.




Catch ya later!
Natasha A.Juan

I'd Like You For Christmas

I would like all my closest friends for Christmas this year please. And also for my birthday. I'm stoked about those coming home to meet me this year. A dear friend, promised his presence for my birthday... its so kind of him to do so....Especially when his mother's birthday falls on the same day as mine...and him going out his way to get to Kuching.... I can't wait!!!!Christmas is merely a week away... WoooHHooooo!!!!!



Happy Holidays everyone!!!!~






Lots' Love,
Natasha A.Juan

Good night, Demetrius~

Just a thought...i think sleep is the most honest behavior, don't you think? Because you don't get to fake it even when u try to..haha.. Who would ever wan to deceive sleep? *Curls up like a cocoon under the blankets*

" I love thee, I love but thee,
With a love that shall not die
Till the sun grows cold
And the stars grow old".

(William Shakespeare)



Goodnight you~
til' then,

Natasha A. Juan

Easy Like Sunday Morning

Oh Julie, you take my breath away......


Hello there.


I spent my Sunday with Julie London.

An entire day listening to her smoky voice. She seems to make time waltz by so slowly. She's someone whom I truly admire. A woman with class, sophistication, elegance and whoa..what a voice!...



This particular song is constantly on playback...



She does remind me of Jessica Rabbit... the sultry, sexy bombshell who happens to be Roger Rabbit's wife..



If I could be a cartoon character... I would so00.... want to be her...*wishful thinking*




Other then the 1950's and 60's, an era which I am keen about is The Victorian Era ... Ah. What I would give, to live in those days. The puffy wide dresses, the gentlemen, the horses, carriages, the "extravagance" of everything during this particular time, especially the language.





Here's a quote from a Victorian English Novelist, Charles Dickens which I adore;

“ You know what I am going to say. I love you. What other men may mean when they use that expression, I cannot tell; what I mean is, that I am under the influence of some tremendous attraction which I have resisted in vain, and which over masters me. You can draw me to fire, you can draw me to water, you can draw me to the gallows, you can draw me to any death, you can draw me to anything I have most avoided, you can draw me to any exposure and disgrace. This and the confusion of my thoughts, so that I am fit for nothing, is what I mean by your being the ruin of me. But if you would return a favourable answer to offer of myself in marriage, you can draw me to any good- every good- with equal force”, ( from the novel, Our Mutual Friend).

Until we meet again =),

Natasha A.Juan

Untitled

I do not want fame. I just wanna be good at what I do. I do not want to be recognize just by the name. I want to be appreciated and respected for what I have contributed as an individual. I do not want to scream "look at me!". I do not have to do that. I do not have to be 'the best'. But I want to be at 'my very best'.

I have given up on many things years before, like my studies. This year I persevered. I did not give up, well, I thought about it but I did not let it happen.

Something I never gave up my entire life was love. I gave up on people, but not LOVE itself. Why should I? Ruin my chance of hoping to love and be loved. I'd rather not.

Friends, oh, dear friends of mine. You guys are my rock and I love you guys to death. How could I ever live without them? FRIENDS should be part of the Wonders Of the World list. I am happy to say that I am blessed with awesome friends. Those who stood by me through thick and thin.

I endure sad, melancholic days by the thought of, there will be a tomorrow. Tomorrow. Ah. A chance of being happy. If not tomorrow then, maybe after tomorrow..until the day I run out of tomorrows. Love. Hope. Faith. I live on that, now...


*What am I blabbering about? Sorry, hehe I just felt like talking... But thank you... for reading anyways :D~

Til then,
Natasha A.Juan

Battle Of the Brains

I am now studying, burning the midnight oil... Eh. I meant, few minutes before this I was studying. Now, i'm taking a short break. Hoping that my super kaw coffee helps my eyes wide open through the night. I have 5 papers this semester. I have 3 more to go...then I can continue monkey-ing around. I can do this. I have to. I am nervous and excited at the same time. There's only today (at 1400 hours, Communication and Society exam) and tommorow (Public Relations and Communication Ethics) left. I can do this... Bailing and failing is not an option.




Got to go, my notes are waiting for me impatiently.




Wish me luck... I desperately need it.



Love, Natasha A.Juan

Today

Today I woke up. A disturbing text message comes next. I spent sometime on deciding whether I should be angry or not. I just woke up. WTH? Gah! My friends said that I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. Nothing to be cranky about. They were wrong. I hadnt even gone to anysides of my bed. I was still in bed. Blahdi hell.

I Have Watch This Countless Times

Le Fabuleux Destin d'Amélie Poulain





This movie is directed by Jean-Pierre Jeunet and starred by Audrey Tautou.

Well basically, this movie is about a girl named Amelie who as a child is mistaken by her father, a doctor that she has heart defects. She hardly has real life contacts with other people because of this concern. Amelie resorts to her own fantastical world and dreams of love and beauty.

As she becomes a young woman and moves to the central part of Paris as a waitress, she found a lost treasure that had belonged to the former occupant of her apartment. She decides to return it to him andseeing his reaction and his new found perspective - she decides to devote her life to the people around her. Her father who is obsessed with his garden-gnome, a failed writer, a hypochondriac, a man who stalks his ex girlfriends, the "ghost", a suppressed young soul, the love of her life and a man whose bones are as brittle as glass.

But after consuming herself with these escapades - she finds out that she is disregarding her own life and damaging her quest for love. She then discovers she must become more aggressive and take a hold of her life and capture the beauty of love she has always dreamed of.

This movie will not be appealing to you if you hate movies with alot of conversation. But I DARE you to watch it. You really would not know what to expect. It is the most interesting, beautiful and brilliant movie I have watched so far and it has been years since I first watched it.




(Above) Little Amelie and her imagination.






Natasha A.Juan

Give Thanks

Dear God,






I have awesome friends. I have awesome parents. I have an awesome dog.


And for these three awesome-ness showers me with heaps of L.O.V.E,


I thank THEE...



~AMEN~




Natasha A.Juan

I Have A Whole Colony of Insects In My Blog

Hello you,


I have nothing much to tell. But what I do have is a photo that I took on my journey back from class while I was stuck in a traffic jam. It was just a simple photo. But see what it turned out to be after a few touch of magic:



Before:






After:









What do you say? =)