Let It Go

Hey you,


So I have finally let go of my Playstation 3. Not just cause the PS4 is now out but, I feel like it has been sitting beside my flatscreen acting like a vase instead of living up to its name as a game console. Sold it off to a dear friend.

Okay, I lied. The main reason why I wanted to sell it off was because of the PS4. Then realized might as well use the money for an iPhone 5s. Heard some rumors that iPhone 6 is coming out later this year. And since my iPhone 4 is still in good condition, might as well just wait. Wait for what? For the rocket to come. Just kidding... nah, it just got too complicated I decided to f*ck it all and just save up the money for a rainy day.

Thank goodness for todays battle did not require a hard fight.

On a heavier note, it has been 8 weeks that I am without Jackie in my life. I had a dream just the other night of me walking her just like we normally do. Her leash slipped through my fingers, she walked ahead of me, I tried to keep up, I told her to slow down, she did not listen, she seemed determined to just reach to whatever is ahead of her and there I was chasing her frantically and in the end all I could do was helplessly watch as she disappeared from my sight.

I woke up crying, and bawled my eyes even more after out realizing that it wasn't just a dream. She. Is. Gone.

FACT.

Never from my mind, heart and soul but I can't touch her, cuddle her, or see her ever again. (this little piggy cried wee-wee all the way home)

Oh Jackie, I have missed you so... I'll cry, be cranky whenever I miss you but I promise at the end of the day I'll SUCK IT UP. Plus, when things don't go my way, I've always got this little reminder; be better NOT  bitter. 



Much love,

2014

It's been ages since I wrote.

But there is just something about today.

Something.

Or is it someone...

Hey you,


Yes, YOU,

I dare you to inspire me.

Ada brani?

Natasha A. Juan

The Final

The final wag, the final kiss...
My sweetie pie, you will forever be missed.
Constant love was what you gave,
So much happiness we received.

Such a tiny dog you are,
The greatest heart you carried with ya,
You touched our lives in so many ways.
Which makes it even harder to say bye-bye.

It is 10 days before Christmas, and 15 days before my birthday. 

And sneaky you left me an early present; the endless hugs, kisses, tail wags and unconditional love which for sure will last my entire life time, Christmas and birthdays to come. 

You are the greatest gift of all.

Merry Christmas, sweetie pie... and thank you.

Mummy misses you and loves you, so much.

#RIPJackie 1998- 15th December 2013

Children Of The Sun

Hey you,

I had a good weekend. Sun. Beach. Sand in my pants. Getting caught by a set of waves. Topped off with being under the most beautiful blanket of stars and howling to the full moon like slacked jawed fools.

Good ol' Mother Nature, she does one helluva freakin' ace mental floss.

     

Love,

Natasha A. Juan

Man Made Problems

There are days when;

I tend to look so far ahead into the future..

Predicting, assuming on whats going to happen.

The good and the bad.

Then, there are days when;

I have nothing wrong going on in my life,

but I tend to look so deep into my past,

and bamm!

Here comes another man-made problem, which in the first place, did not even exist.

Now you see, sometimes I think too far ahead.. or too far back until I forget to see whats in front of me. Thus, forgetting what I have NOW. 

The PRESENT.

Come to think about it.

I'm good. 

In fact, I'm blessed.

:)

Much love,

Natasha.

Pride and Prejudice

I'll trade my pride with love.

Any given day.

Any given day.






Love,
Natasha A. Juan

These Are A Few Of My Favorite Things

Hello,

Gosh. I miss a whole lot of people. I miss a whole lot of things that I love doing. Don't get me wrong. I am pretty happy at where I am at. I got a job now which I love as well, and yeah, that pretty much takes up most of my time. But yeah, I do miss my hobby. I miss these:

I miss capturing these.  I took all these last year with my trusty Olympus. And I really miss doing so.

WORLD, HOLD ON.

I need times like these again. I miss spending time with my 'baby'.


Not to worry, in time I'll find time to hold my 'baby' once again. Sooner. Later.  Eventually. In time.



I'll be back. *Robocop style*

:)


Much love,
Natasha A. Juan

You Have Other Senses

Uncertainties fills up the grey clouds in my mind,
Somehow making my eyes go blind.
So today I decided to close my eyes,
And just see the world using my heart.


We live in a beautiful world.

*smiley face*



Much love,
Natasha A. Juan

My Beating Heart

Things change, emotions change, people change, situations change.
But that doesn't matter to me.
I don't need to know your name.
I don't want to know your name.
I want to know your heart.
Your heart.
For mine to know.
For mine to feel.
For mine to beat along to.


Much love,
Natasha A. Juan

Halfway Through This Year

So far through this 2011, 

I HAVE BEEN

Good to know I'm very much alive.

Oh, here's a beautiful song just for YOU.



Much love,

Luna Strikes Back

Hey you,

I have lost all sense of creativity it seems. So many things have happened around me and I have no idea where to start. I know I have promised an update. So here it is.

My life revolves around work nowadays. I don't think I even have time for myself. I haven't touched my camera for a very long time, nor have I even have time to gaze at the night sky like I used to. Busy. But to be honest, I love where I am at right now. Working keeps me sane, especially when my work involves going places, meeting people and best of all, TALK, and not to forget I have amazing people as my colleagues, I KID YOU NOT.

Mmkay. Enough of 'work'.

*On an unrelated note*

Luna is simply gorgeous tonight. It's been awhile since we gazed at each other. These few days she has shone ever so brightly down upon me. :D

Whoops, I gotta go. I'll catch you very, very soon. Be good okay? Remember to smile always, laugh your heart out, and love all the time.

LOVE NEVER FAILS.

Even in between raging wars, love is there.



Catch you soon,
Natasha A. Juan

Carpe Diem

Hey you,


Everybody dies, but not everyone gets to live. Treat everyday like your last. Do your best, laugh your heart out, learn as much as you can, and most of all; love all that is around you.



Lot's of love,
Natasha A. Juan

Gimme A HIGH 5

I see humor in just about every single thing in life, always for the right reasons, just not usually at the right situations.

No.

No.

And NO.

I AM NOT on drugs.

I'm just really 'high' on LIFE.

Laughter is a tranquillizer with no side effects.

I promise..

2011, I laugh you very much. :)



Love,
Natasha A. Juan

I Would Love To Share

Hey you,

I have been busy with life so please, pardon me for not posting as much as before. As soon as I do have time I would gladly do so. Then again, from the bottom of my heart I thank you, for viewing. I have a lot to update,  you on, but, in time aight?

Do what makes you happy, be with who makes you smile, laugh as much as you breathe, and love as long as you live.






You know I love you.




Natasha A. Juan

Bring It On

Hey you,

It's been awhile since I wrote. Life has been super kind to me as always, they'll be occasional rain and shine but alls good. I'm pretty much blessed. Other than that work has been filling my time as well. I love work. And I'm not even being sarcastic about it.

I am surrounded by awesome people. Human angels as I love to refer them as, even at my workplace, everyone is just so awesome. Okay, I am blabbering too much now, so here.. let me fill you up with my dosage of love.

Love.

The word which is so 'overatedly' (<---is there even such a word?) used nowadays....

Eh? Okay,  I apologize. I have just lost my train of thought out of a sudden. I'll get back to you soon.

For now here's The Sex song.. ;)








Make love, not war.


Love always,
Natasha A. Juan

This Year

I must think less, do more, talk less, listen more, cry less, laugh more, party less, eat more, expect less, appreciate more, feel less, rationalize more, argue less, love more.










Happy New Year beautiful people!








Love,
Natasha A. Juan

In The Name Of Love

In My Head

I go to sleep with your image in my head.



When I wake up;



It's still there.

Gimme A Hug

I feel so much love in my life. It feels as if I am big enough to give the whole world a hug.  :D :D :D














Lot's of love,
Natasha A. Juan

The Looking Glass

She said, 'yes.'
I said, 'no.'

I said, 'let it go.'
She said, 'I won't do so.'

I said, 'I need help.'
she said, 'I am your help.'

I said, 'I wanted to give up.'
she said, 'but, I don't want to give up.'

I said, 'you are confusing,'
she said, 'of course I am..'




'I am YOU'.

Written by,
Natasha A. Juan